Nothing is forever...
What happens when you're stuck in a corner, dependent on others, no way out? Do you stay? Do you try to get the courage to stand up for yourself and move on? What happens when the person you love betrays you and you don't know what to do? Do you leave? Do you try to work it out? What about when life continually throws you curveballs?
Frankly, my batting average has always been horrible. I'm not joking. I can catch, throw, but when it comes to hitting the ball *shakes head* I can't. So life, here's a hint, how about giving me a grounder in the form of a kickball and maybe I can knock it left field and finally get a chance to move?? Yes? No?
Yeah, didn't think so. Right now life has been going crazier and crazier. The only thing keeping me sane is Jeremiah 29:11. God knows what He's doing in my life, whether I'm let in on the plan or not.
I've been feeling like Indiana Jones in the Last Crusade. That first step of blind faith took longer than I ever thought it would. My hesitation has cost me. I waited to act and now I'm having to face the consequences. God works in His own timing and there's no way that I can do it on my own.
Now in this and past experiences, I've been trying to help a friend. She's faces things that a 20 year old shouldn't. Talking sense doesn't work because while what I say is true, when you're blinded by love, life takes a back seat.
So what makes love the exception??? When nothing is forever; why is it that love is the one thing us humans choose to believe should be forever? I've had my share of boyfriends and relationships, none of which have worked out. I've been in love once in my life. Now that being said I will always wonder what if, but as of now I'm single. I know it's where I need to be right now. I have to be ready before God will bring the right guy to blow my expectations out of the water. And yes, I will have expectations because if I don't I'll just end up miserable or alone. Life is too short to not take chances though. I'll make mistakes, but that's the beauty of it.
So what will you do? Will you talk to that one person you always felt something for? Will you take life by the face and say "Hey, I'm here. Let's do this!"? Will you decide the right place for you is to be alone rather than in a destructive relationship? Whatever you decide, know that you can always change the directions of the ship you're steering.
truly yours as always,
Patricia J. Phillips xoxo
"I thought I made a mistake once, but it turned out it was a creative moment."--Scott Fleming
